It's exactly how I feel right
fucking now
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— How about we get back to you. Stiles?
— I’m fine. Yeah, aside from the not sleeping, the jumpiness, constant overwhelming crushing fear that something terrible is about to happen
— It’s called hyper vigilance. The persistent feeling of being under threat
— It’s not just a feeling, no, it’s… it’s like it’s a panic attack. You know like I can’t even breathe
— Like you’re drowning?
— Yeah.
— So, if you’re drowning and you’re trying to keep your mouth closed until that very last moment… what if you choose not open your mouth? To not let the water in?
— You do it anyway – it’s a reflex.
— But, if you hold off until that reflex kicks in, you have more time, right?
— Not much time.
— Then more time to fight your way to the surface
— I guess
— More time to be rescued
— More time to be in the agonizing pain. Did you forget about the part where you feel like your head’s exploding?
— If it’s about survival isn’t a little agony worth it?
— But what if it just gets worse? What if it’s agony now and then it’s just hell later on
— Then think about something Winstone Churchill once said: “If you’re going through hell – keep going”
You know when you’re drowning you don’t actually inhale until right before you black out. It’s called voluntary apnea. It’s like no matter how much you’re freaking out, the instinct to not let any water in is so strong that you won’t open your mouth until you feel like you head’s exploding. Then when you finally do let it in, that’s when it stops hurting. It’s not scary anymore, it’s… it’s actually kind of peaceful.
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serials,
пустота внутри меня,
сквозь закрытые глаза,
зимние сквозняки, запутавшиеся в занавесках,
навылет через мысли,
wolf pack,
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